I think it's all over. Sex that is. I haven't felt aroused for months now and not having sex has not bothered me in the slightest. I don't seem interested in spanking anymore either. In fact I just want to work and then read a book and go to sleep. My wife is not happy about the situation. She is using the vibrator quite frequently and leaving it out for me to see that she is using it. Trying to shame me into action I guess.
Honestly I don't care. Even touching her is a perfunctory motion. I give her a kiss when I say goodbye and one when I say hello and that's it.
To be honest all I keep thinking about is being alone and not having to do anything except please myself. I won't run off though. I was brought up to stick things out, through thick and thin. Doing the right thing does not stop the fantasies though. I would love to be on a sailing boat in the Pacific or on an island in the Indian ocean.
Ah well.
"To be honest all I keep thinking about is being alone and not having to do anything except please myself." I hear you. ;-)
ReplyDeleteWhy not try a long silent retreat? 5 days or 10 days?
ReplyDeleteMaybe that's the time you need alone...
How awful for you. It must have come as a great shock.
ReplyDeleteAre you quite sure there are no medical reasons for feeling so depressed? Perhaps you could open up to your GP in a little more detail than you can here -- the medical profession is pretty unshockable and you deserve a better life than the one you're living at present.
I also think the comment from Alighieri is one well worth considering.
I'm sure I am not alone in hoping this arid period won't last long for you. My thoughts are with you and your lady.
Do let us know what you decide to do -- and make sure it's something positive. Yes, one day you will die, but I'm sure you won't be forgotten.
God bless you and think of this as the first step of a new journey.
I would think there is some stress that is causing depression. Sometimes, people are not even aware of stress, it has become to common. Try exercise for two weeks. If no, change seek medical advise. The lack of interest is sex is secondary to "read a book and go to sleep".
ReplyDeleteYou could be clinically (so-called endogenously) depressed. You should see your GP. It can nearly always be treated successfully.
ReplyDeleteYou have my sympathy, I hope you can get help soon,
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So sorry. I know doctors aren't always the answer but if this has been going on for a while I would go and have a chat with him/her and personally, I would speak with your wife and tell her how you feeling.
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Ronnie
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I'm not sure why this is on a spanking blog? It looks like you're in a depression of sorts! Unless you really want to destroy your marriage, I suggest you do something about it if you haven't yet. I know for myself, if I was in this mood (and I have been) my wife wouldn't know what I needed unless I told her point blank. It's something you'd need to discuss ahead of time, because at the time you are in a depressed place you won't think of it probably. I would tell my, wife she'd have to secure my body once naked, and then give me a severe discipline type punishment to help snap me out of it. I'm not into discipline as a rule, but enjoy her caning me from time to time. Not very severely, more sensual. I think this would really help change my focus in my mind as long as she soothed and caressed my afterwards, and let me expel the demons inside. Something too try possibly?!
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We went through something very similar and are still fighting off brief recurrences. It happens. And while it seems endless and permanent, it need not be. You do have to address it though. You deserve better and so does your wife.
ReplyDelete"Honestly I don't care. Even touching her is a perfunctory motion. I give her a kiss when I say goodbye and one when I say hello and that's it.
ReplyDeleteTo be honest all I keep thinking about is being alone and not having to do anything except please myself. I won't run off though. I was brought up to stick things out, through thick and thin. Doing the right thing does not stop the fantasies though."
I feel the same way, except my wife is just as uninterested in sex. I feel like trying to get her to do anything remotely related to sex is now just a chore, a painfully aggravating chore.
sad to read, and I am hoping some things have changed for the positive. Marriage counselling might help, and if not, best for both to separate and enjoy life. good luck
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